so what is it that inspires or has inspired so many people through the ages to write a book or share their beliefs, philosphies, or interpretations of "the great thinkers" own writings....or their own? sometimes i guess it is to cash in on a particular global consciousness at a given time…or the fact that humans in general are made to feel lesser than particular individuals made famous by the media or society and thus feel the need to fill their "inadequate" minds and spiritual voids with the day to day garbage of some false hero in order to take the pain of facing their own mundane existence. its always  easier to tear someone else's flaws apart in order to make your own feel less pronounced. we see it everyday…we tear it and indulge in it everyday. and ultimately go about our lives fooling ourselves that "we are just fine, its everyone else who is fucked up!" and then each day rolls into the next……and we trick ourselves again, just to get by....numb just enough to our own trickery to get us to bed time and sleep it off before it surfaces. 

even this, that i am writing, will probably be scoffed at by the masses….because i'm a "nobody" ………. if some great artist, musician or scholar were to write these words…well people might actually ponder them and take something from it.

So what IS my reason for even bothering to write anything, that probably no one will give a shit about or just simply judge me on?

i guess its the same reason anyone at some point of years of searching and tearing everything apart in search of that "holy grail" to fill that ever present void that something is always missing, sits down to share what they have come to realise.

rather than spewing it out on Facebook or something where people are forced to see me purge....anyone interested now can have the choice to read my rants and see why and where it comes from.